Tuesday, January 26, 2010


So I have one and a half points now because I got sick and had to call in to work today and leave early yesterday. I haven't been sleeping at all so I'm having a hard time getting better and I really just end up feeling worse, which makes me sleep even worse. Its a terrible cycle. I think I've definitely been overdoing it here. I work all day in the sun then I end up staying out until 3 AM almost every night just hanging out and losing track of time. I need better time management skills.

I've been homesick a lot lately too. I can't help but feel like things are changing there, even if they aren't. Just the fact that I'm not there to see it, its hard for me to feel like I'm a part of anything there. I know I'm looking too much into it, so I'm trying to curb that as much as I can and just let things naturally go the way they will and hope that we'll come together in the end.

I've been here two and a half weeks and it feels like months already. I have zero sense of time. The day before yesterday (Sunday) I thought it was Tuesday until 6 PM. hahah.

I was night trained/view trained the other day and I really like the night shifts. They're easier because you're on a tripod and you only take one pose instead of at least three. Its difficult though because you have to constantly yell "Okay, everyone stay veryyyy still! Super still! Here we go, 1 2 3, very still!" because if they move, they look like ghosts with the one and a half second shutter speed. We also got the D90s yesterday and they are amazing. After every picture I would say under my breath "MAN that's a good picture". haha. Like every time. They boost your confidence as a photographer haha. I love it.

Now I'm going to watch Elvis movies super loudly because none of my roommates are home. <3


Megan said...

Feel Better, Marina!

Kristin said...

I hope you feel better!

The homesickness is totally normal, and to be honest, when I first left for school in Florida 4 years ago I felt the SAME way. It was this subconscious thought that things would change and move without me. However, they don't! It always stays the same. Maybe you can try to get a couple days in a row off to go home, but I know it's hard with the CP. I was able to do it once during mine and during my first month of school in FL. It helped wonders and it was a reality check for me, knowing everything was still the same!

Marina said...

Thanks guys! I know it'll settle but its just hard right now. I'm just trying to keep busy and that helps a bit. Hopefully I'll be able to go home for a weekend sometime soon.